In this Series on JT, Jordan Dodds talks candidly about topics from the perspective of an autistic adult, how he sees the world every day and the little or big things that may be barriers or obstacles. In this entry, Jordan Talks candidly about how he has taken pride in having Asperger Syndrome
As of August this year, I have now lived with Asperger syndrome for ten years, Ten years of learning to live with a mind-bending and complex condition. All of the meltdowns, the sleepless nights and the moments of pure zen have been worth it.
Ever since the day of my very first appointment to start diagnoses, I have always been told to love and relish what I have, To never ever see myself as different or as the outcast among the pack, To see myself as a normal person with the occasional support along the way.
That no matter the outcome of the process, I would lead a healthy and productive life just like every single peer in my life.
Having this self-love and being able to sustain it has been challenging, Especially in the hostile environment of a school where creative minds are shackled to the floor in a prison of standardisation and adherence to the mundane.
To be told directly to my face that I’m different to everyone else clashed against the mantra, with one teacher at primary school going to levels unforeseen to make sure my self-love was engineered into self-loath.
No one should ever be treated like that, To have confidence ripped away from you and be degraded to a worthless meek, No matter who you are or what you have, embrace it and relish it with every passing day.
My little quirks such as my passion for repetition, my love affair with order and structure and my Yearning for knowledge can be used for anything possible. If something needs sorting I’m the first person to volunteer, if in a group and research needs doing ill do that and even if someone else needs to get over the town ill plan the itinerary.
To have pride in my Aspergers has been the greatest zen of my life, and when it comes to marching in the Durham Pride 2018 march today, it won’t be just because I am a proud gay man but a proud autistic Man
That was the Autistic Perspective for Jordans Thoughts, Written by Jordan Dodds